Showing posts with label Thoughts. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Thoughts. Show all posts

Friday, January 20, 2012

I'm back!!!!!

First I want to start with yesterday...........I did great until I ate SEVERAL cookies last night.They were SMALL cookies and half fresh ground wheat and lots of oats too.No white flour but STILL.

That does NOT put a damper on my enthusiasm though as I made up for it toda by eating GREAT aaaaaaaaaaaaaand......

I walked my 10 miles!!!! I am so proud of myself! My calves are sore and I am sure I will be even more sore tomorrow but thats great! I did not do it all at once....I did 2-1-2-2-3

(I had 1/2 a cookie when packing Scott's lunch too in the early AM)
Brunch today was a small green smoothie and loaded salad.(Plenty of cheese/nuts/vegies and olive oil)
Snack -25 chocolate chips
Supper-Small bowl of sausage soup with hm saurkraut and sour cream/cheese
Snack-3 bites of brownie batter
Dessert-This is the amazing part.I ate 1 small brownie with 1/2 cup ice cream and caramel sauce but guess what?I could barely finish it! It felt so rich and I just couldn't BELIEVE it.I was MORE than satisfied.....It was TOOOO much.My gut felt a little,I wouldn't say SICK at all but just not good.I didn't want ANYMORE and those last few bites were not pleasant.I was SO happy and amazed though!!

I got all of my water in but no tea and I am not drinking tea tonight but I will be drinking lots more water.I am extra thirsty today after all that walking! It took me a total of about 2 hrs and 15 min.Twenty minutes of that was jogging too.I did the fast miles with WATP.Each mile has a 2 minute boost at the end of jogging.

I feel like I am going into the weekend doing so well!!

Another change I am making is to report what I eat on Saturdays.I was going to be free from that but it really isn't that hard.I am used to it now AND I want that accountability.I want to post every.single.thing that goes into my mouth!

Super,super motivated tonight.I have been faithful at praying to the Lord earnestly for strength and to keep my mind ON being healthy.It makes such a huge difference for me.

I wanted to share some info here from Dr.Mercola.He has excellent,excellent stuff.Check out his info here about the Peak 8 program and see what you think! I am going to start doing it to some degree.......

http://fitness.mercola.com/sites/fitness/archive/2010/07/27/the-growing-promise-of-shorter-more-intense-strength-training-workouts.aspx

http://fitness.mercola.com/sites/fitness/archive/2012/01/20/lifting-weights-for-dummies-in-four-easy-steps.aspx

http://fitness.mercola.com/sites/fitness/archive/2012/01/20/physically-active-children-perform-better-academically.aspx

Then there is the all important sleep issue!

http://articles.mercola.com/sites/articles/archive/2010/10/02/secrets-to-a-good-night-sleep.aspx

Off for now! I need some more water to wash down that rich dessert! lol Honestly,it all fit into a coffee cup and it wasn't packed down!

Skipping away........Talk to you ladies tomorrow!




Friday, January 13, 2012

Friday! :)

Time for the weekend! I did excellent today.It feels SO good to be able to actually say I did EXCELLENT for so many days in a row.In times past there were SO many times that I started trying to lose but could never have EXCELLENT days! I was always fighting the sugar or not exercising etc. etc. Then I wouldn't lose and it was very discouraging.(I have lost weight a couple of different times successfully but most of the time I failed because I didn't stick with it.)

So I am very happy to be able to have so many wonderful days.I can honestly say that I am following my plan 100%.I don't have to say "I exercised today and got most of my water in but I ate way too much candy." or "I am doing *alright* but I haven't exercised all week.I did get my water in though!" or "Well,I haven't been doing so hot the last couple days but I am going to crack down Monday!"

That was me in the past.....Never having the will power to do this all the way.

It feels SO good to be in control of this area in my life.ALL the time.I never have moments where I just quit for a while iykwim.

It isn't that I won't ever splurge.Tomorrow is my free day ! lol I decided from the beginning that it would be a good decision for me to have a free day.THATS why I am having it.Not because I just can't handle it etc. Thats ALL the difference for me this time.A totally different mentality.I WILL take care of the body the Lord has given me.I WILL be a good example to my children and everyone around me.There is NO stopping this time.Not even if I get pregnant......

Yesterday's total food journal was.....

THUR

Breakfast-1 small wedge of breakfast casserole stuff (All healthy,hm stuff lol) 1 sm capp
Lunch-1.5 cups of pork/mashed potatoes/butter
Snack-2 cookies
Supper-1 cup sausage/eggs/cheese
Dessert-2.5 cookies

Now a little about my food......We are running out of a few groceries so that is why I lack some produce etc.(Going shopping tomorrow!).The other part of lunch got burned so I was still hungry.By the time supper came around I was starving.I decided to eat a couple of cookies because I had the calories for them AND they have no flour in them which means no WHITE flour lol.Lots of oats,peanut butter and YES some sugar,but it was really not a whole lot different than eating oats for breakfast etc.I DID think about my decision and I was fine with it.

Then I had a couple more on our "pre" date night lol.(We have a mini date night Thur night to make the weekend start a little earlier! lol Our REAL date night is SAT.)

Anyhow.....I planned on eating more sweets last night so I was perfectly fine with that.I had the calories saved back.

We did stay up late but thats ok because the weekend is here and I can get some extra sleep.

Water-GREAT
Exercise-5 fast miles!

TODAY so far........

Breakfast-2 cups brocolli,2 eggs with some cheese.DELICIOUS! 2 bites of leftover cookie
Lunch-2 eggs on a hm/wheat roll.....Actually it was HALF of a roll.(With lots of butter)
Snack-1 roll with lots of butter and cinnamon sugar.
Supper-
Dessert- (Have not had either yet.....)

Water-Doing great!
Exercise......I did NOT feellike exercising but I did it anyhow! 5 FAST MILES! :):)

So thats how I did !

NATALY....Every time I try to post  to your blog my page freezes up.I have NO idea why! Does anyone else have this problem????? You are doing GREAT Nataly......!!!!

Thursday, January 12, 2012

Thursday! How is everyone?

Doing wonderfully here!!!!

I just got my hour of exercise in and that feels great! 20 min of cardio/kickboxing,20 min a dance workout dvd on netflix,10 min zumba/dancing and 10 stretching.

Abigail made more lemon bars last night.Scott and I had one last night while we played Super Mario on the wii together lol.We had a blast and that lemon bar tasted so good knowing that it was a good choice.....Knowing that I had hardly any sugar that day.

When I put my skirt on this morning it buttoned much easier! I was tempted to step on the scales but I am not going to until Monday!Monday will be our day then!!!! I am super excited!!

I am not even tempted to eat anything I shouldn't and I thank the Lord for that!

I have more sugar calories available in my little planner than I ever have on a Thursday! The great thing about the way I am doing this sugar thing is that I never feel deprived.Right now I have 325 sugar calories available and if I get all of my water in I will have 50 more tonight.......I could earn more even if I got outside for some fresh air today for 1/2 hour etc.

It feels great to know that if Scott brought me home a Snickers bar I could eat it without guilt!I know that at any given time I can eat sweets if I want.It is fun to see how much I can save back though and it is not a good feeling at ALL to have nothing left in my "HAVE" pocket lol.If none of this makes sense to you,see my "Dessert plan" label.

~~~~~~~Thoughts~~~~~~~

A great thought I had yesterday.

It may take me months to lose the "evidence" of bad habits (lack of self control) from the past, but I can be a self controlled person TODAY!!!! I can have that satisfaction TODAY! Lord willing,I will never- ever- ever- go back to the way I used to be!

Last night,Scott and I were playing the wii and getting ready to go to bed and I was hungry.It wasn't really TRUE hunger but I was hungry.I said "Lets get to bed before I eat something." Then I realized what I said and I said "Nevermind.......I am NOT eating something."

I am not going to make bad decisions.I am not going to eat something because" I can't resist......".

I have more to say lol but I must stop for now! School needs done and the psewing room needs cleaned!

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

Hello fellow weight loss Mammas!!!

Doing fabs today (as my children and husband would say lol)!!!!

My total food from yesterday was......

Breakfast-Sm capp,green smothie and 1 piece of pb toast (hm bread)
Lunch-Large salad with sunflower seeds/cheese with cottage cheese/garlic dressing and 1 SM piece of toast
Snack- One 1" square of lemon bar (this was later in the afternoon.....after both of my lemon bar battles lol)
Supper-Salad,leftover pork roast/potatoes etc.,1 SMALL piece of garlic toast
Dessert-1 very small mini angelfood cake that Vashti made with brown sugar/cream cheese frosting (not much)

Water-Got all of it down! 72 oz plus 16 oz nettle/mint tea.I was drinking 4 water bottles(24 oz each) full of water and one of tea but I changed my mind and decided to cut it back to 3 water bottles.It is just too much water for me.I am big on paying attention to your body and I don't care what "studies" show,I do not believe that the Lord  intended for me to drink so much water that I have to be racing to the bathroom all of the time with my pee completely clear.We will see how I do on this amount of water/tea.

Exercise-1 hour yesterday.Kickboxing,walking,dancing etc.

Sleep-I went to bed BEFORE 10:00 last night! CRAZY lol I had to get up at 5:00.I got SEVEN hours of sleep.The crazy thing was that I woke up absolutely exhausted! Weird for me.......

Today........

Breakfast-1 egg/1/2 cup broccoli with a little bit of cheese and 1/2 piece of toast with butter

Lunch- 1 SMALL piece of hm coffee cake with peanutbutter,1/2 cup cottage cheese,1 boiled egg and 2 orange slices.

Exercise.....I walked five fast miles and stretched for 15 min.

~~~~~~~~ Thoughts~~~~~~~~~

I am super motivated.For some reason,lately I have been thinking ALOT about my health in my old age.I look around me and I do NOT like what I see.I do NOT believe that old age should be bringing the diseases and misery that we see everywhere.What we do NOW ladies is going to make a difference in our health as Grandmas!

I have been thinking about the burden I could be to my children if I don't take care of my health.

I have been thinking along these lines......

What if there were no dentists?
What if there were no hospitals?
What if there were no medications?

I mean imagine if false teeth were not an option and cavities could not be filled? Now,I hope with all of my heart that I do not have to have false teeth someday but let me tell you,we would take a WHOLE lot more care of our teeth if we could not go get the decay drilled out and then eventually a brand new set of teeth etc.

No hospitals or medications?

What about no government help?

Our society is one of no consequence for our actions.We can eat frozen burritos/McDonalds and pop and then when we get diabetes/cancer etc. we can get a disability check......We can still get the medical care that we can't pay for because we can't work (because we are disabled).Then finally,we can go to the nursing home.Even if we can't pay for it.(Nevermind my feelings about nursing homes.)

What if none of that were possible?

I just get so sick of all of the irresponsibility.

I do not want to be a burden to my children OR society because I lacked the self control to take care of myself.Sure,no matter HOW perfect we ate/lived there would still be medical problems/disease but, if I got sick after knowing that I truly did take care of myself ,I would not feel guilty.

If I start having health problems because I lack the self control to not eat to much sugar,white flour,junk food and because I am too lazy to exercise/be active etc. etc. that is MY fault!

I am so serious about this.It churns my stomach to imagine being like the majority of old people I see.Pumped full of medication,inactive,and overweight.

My Grandpa is over 70,is on no government help,still works to take care of himself 100%(no retirement),still cuts his own wood,gardens etc..He has never been on any medications.He looks great and everyone thinks he is my dad.

If the Lord chooses me to have an illness for HIS glory then HIS WILL BE DONE.

BUT it will NOT be because I am choosing NOT to take care of myself.

With HIS help I KNOW I will be successful this time.

~~~~~~~More thoughts.......Different topic lol~~~~~~~~~~~~

Wanna agree on a weigh in day? I was going to weigh every day but I am done with that.It is tooooooo discouraging lol.PLUS I think weigh in day is such a day to look forward to! Especially if we all did it together! I really do not care what day it is as long as it is the same day every week.We could vote? I think it would be so fun! We could even meet up on chat or something for a special meeting every week!?Skype chat? FB? MOMYS? That would be SO fun!!

Also,my new train of thought is this........No matter how much weight I am or am not losing,every day my body is healthier and working better.After being abused for so many years it may take a little bit to really start dropping the weight.I will not let the numbers on the scale discourage me.I will just keep adjusting my plan and being patient until I AM losing.I mean,I can't say it isn't about the weight because it is.The weight HAS to go, lol but I believe 100% that it will if I keep this up.I am changing major habits here.

I think thats it for now.I need to do supper and have a snack.I am hungry.Bye for now!!

Oh and I SOOOO wanted to eat a few pieces of coffee cake at lunch today!!! Instead I ate one very SMALL piece! :):):)

Sunday, January 8, 2012

If you always do what you've always done.......

You will always get what you have always gotten.

I am thinking of what I have always done and trying to do the opposite.....

I have always:

Snacked on sugary things all throughout the day and had alot of desserts
Quit my exercise plan
Eaten too many carbs
Not gotten enough sleep

Surely if I:

Heavily moderate sweets
Be faithful to my exercise
Cut back on empty carbs and...
Get better sleep

I am GOING to lose!

Saturday, January 7, 2012

HOW?

In the world did I GET here?????????

I was baffled today when I read Grace's blog on weight loss that she just started.She is 166! (Sorry Grace but....) Whoopeeeeee lol. That SOOOOOOO seems like NOTHING to me right now! I would be THRILLED to be at that weight! HOW did I ever allow myself to weigh this much? It honestly scares me.

Don't get me wrong Grace,I was that weight before conceiving my 4th child and I was so depressed at how much I weighed.JUST as depressed as I am now.I was SO embarrassed by my weight! Well,I was absolutley embarrassed of my weight when I was 158 and 149!!!!! Sickening!

I just want to cry when I think about it.

Then..........Titus is TOOOOOOO good of  a sleeper.He does't wake at night like the others to nurse! I had some spotting and last night my left ear was hot and my right one was NOT lol.That has been a sign of pregnancy for me.

WHAT IN THE WORLD?

What in the world would I do if I got pregnant??????? I have been assuming that I would have a year like I always do.

Of course I would welcome another baby ANYTIME 100% but I can tell you that if I got pregnant right now I would be SO immaculate about my eating/health/fitness.NO MESSING AROUND.It would scare me to death.

I will be back to posting my food log tomorrow!

Thursday, January 5, 2012

Feeling better after reading and looking at motivating things......

Check out the new pink and blue picture on my sidebar! Isn't that an amazing and motivating picture! I have always considered my extra weight a sort of prison.I am picturing the REAL me trapped inside of this extra padding.I just need to shed the weight to SEE ME lol.

Anyhow I am writing out a goal plan because:

1.I like(no, LOVE) planning.There is just something about getting everything planned and written down that is SO encouraging!!!

2.I think that getting small goals written down will make my task not seem so HUGE.

3.I want to plan certain rewards for myself when I reach my goals.

SO,here is how I am going to do it.......I am going to divide the weight I have to lose up between all of my children lol.I know the weight I was before conceiving all of them lol.I will start from 230 since I gained a few pounds (SUCH A BUMMER).

My GOAL weight is 140 and that means I need to lose 90 pounds!!!!! (CRY) Can that REALLY be true?

That is pretty much 13 lbs per child that I put on.

SO I will work backwards and lose the weight from Titus first and eventually work up to losing Silas'! lol (Now that is some old weight! lol)

Goal #1-217 (Titus's weight GONE) By Feb 12
Goal #2-204 (Isaac's weight GONE) By Mar 18
Goal #3-191 (Ezekiel's weight GONE!) By April 22
Goal #4-178 (Tobias' weight GONE!) By May 27
Goal #5-165 (Patience's weight GONE!) By July 1
Goal #6-152 (Vashti's weight GONE!) By Aug 5
Goal #7-140 (Silas' weight GONE!) By Sept 25

I would love to have the weight gone by Titus's first birthday.That is over 8 months or aprox 37 weeks and I need to lose 2.5 lbs a week from here on out to do it.I think it is possible and a healthy rate if I am SERIOUS about it.

So,this is my plan........!

Sunday, December 4, 2011

How I am feeling today (Sunday)

Motivated!! It is nice to not feel discouraged after a weekend.Well,the weekend is not over with yet but the fact that I did SO good all week with eating AND that I got SO much exercise in (ESPECIALLY THAT 2 hours on FRIDAY!) made it so that I don't feel discouraged by eating more sweets this weekend!That is exactly the way that I wanted it.Getting discouraged is one of the biggest reasons I fail!I am going to aim to weigh myself everyday.I like that idea.It helps keep me focused.I don't mind that my weight is higher today.I fully expect it to be up a little on Sun/Mon.

When I put my skirt on FRI night it was definitely looser and that was neat!

I am going to really concentrate on drinking lots of water today and some tea too.I need to do better on the tea.I am also going to make sure that I just stay AWARE.Keeping a food journal really helps me with this.

I decided that I am not going to exercise today to make up for not getting exercise in yesterday.I need to have Sundays off for SURE.Otherwise I will always be "making up" on Sundays.If I don't get my exercise in on SAT I will just miss it.

I am off for now! I am going to drink some water,clean up a little bit and then help my girls with a gift exchange AND address a bunch of Christmas cards! :):)