Time for the weekend! I did excellent today.It feels SO good to be able to actually say I did EXCELLENT for so many days in a row.In times past there were SO many times that I started trying to lose but could never have EXCELLENT days! I was always fighting the sugar or not exercising etc. etc. Then I wouldn't lose and it was very discouraging.(I have lost weight a couple of different times successfully but most of the time I failed because I didn't stick with it.)
So I am very happy to be able to have so many wonderful days.I can honestly say that I am following my plan 100%.I don't have to say "I exercised today and got most of my water in but I ate way too much candy." or "I am doing *alright* but I haven't exercised all week.I did get my water in though!" or "Well,I haven't been doing so hot the last couple days but I am going to crack down Monday!"
That was me in the past.....Never having the will power to do this all the way.
It feels SO good to be in control of this area in my life.ALL the time.I never have moments where I just quit for a while iykwim.
It isn't that I won't ever splurge.Tomorrow is my free day ! lol I decided from the beginning that it would be a good decision for me to have a free day.THATS why I am having it.Not because I just can't handle it etc. Thats ALL the difference for me this time.A totally different mentality.I WILL take care of the body the Lord has given me.I WILL be a good example to my children and everyone around me.There is NO stopping this time.Not even if I get pregnant......
Yesterday's total food journal was.....
THUR
Breakfast-1 small wedge of breakfast casserole stuff (All healthy,hm stuff lol) 1 sm capp
Lunch-1.5 cups of pork/mashed potatoes/butter
Snack-2 cookies
Supper-1 cup sausage/eggs/cheese
Dessert-2.5 cookies
Now a little about my food......We are running out of a few groceries so that is why I lack some produce etc.(Going shopping tomorrow!).The other part of lunch got burned so I was still hungry.By the time supper came around I was starving.I decided to eat a couple of cookies because I had the calories for them AND they have no flour in them which means no WHITE flour lol.Lots of oats,peanut butter and YES some sugar,but it was really not a whole lot different than eating oats for breakfast etc.I DID think about my decision and I was fine with it.
Then I had a couple more on our "pre" date night lol.(We have a mini date night Thur night to make the weekend start a little earlier! lol Our REAL date night is SAT.)
Anyhow.....I planned on eating more sweets last night so I was perfectly fine with that.I had the calories saved back.
We did stay up late but thats ok because the weekend is here and I can get some extra sleep.
Water-GREAT
Exercise-5 fast miles!
TODAY so far........
Breakfast-2 cups brocolli,2 eggs with some cheese.DELICIOUS! 2 bites of leftover cookie
Lunch-2 eggs on a hm/wheat roll.....Actually it was HALF of a roll.(With lots of butter)
Snack-1 roll with lots of butter and cinnamon sugar.
Supper-
Dessert- (Have not had either yet.....)
Water-Doing great!
Exercise......I did NOT feellike exercising but I did it anyhow! 5 FAST MILES! :):)
So thats how I did !
NATALY....Every time I try to post to your blog my page freezes up.I have NO idea why! Does anyone else have this problem????? You are doing GREAT Nataly......!!!!
Friday, January 13, 2012
Thursday, January 12, 2012
Thursday! How is everyone?
Doing wonderfully here!!!!
I just got my hour of exercise in and that feels great! 20 min of cardio/kickboxing,20 min a dance workout dvd on netflix,10 min zumba/dancing and 10 stretching.
Abigail made more lemon bars last night.Scott and I had one last night while we played Super Mario on the wii together lol.We had a blast and that lemon bar tasted so good knowing that it was a good choice.....Knowing that I had hardly any sugar that day.
When I put my skirt on this morning it buttoned much easier! I was tempted to step on the scales but I am not going to until Monday!Monday will be our day then!!!! I am super excited!!
I am not even tempted to eat anything I shouldn't and I thank the Lord for that!
I have more sugar calories available in my little planner than I ever have on a Thursday! The great thing about the way I am doing this sugar thing is that I never feel deprived.Right now I have 325 sugar calories available and if I get all of my water in I will have 50 more tonight.......I could earn more even if I got outside for some fresh air today for 1/2 hour etc.
It feels great to know that if Scott brought me home a Snickers bar I could eat it without guilt!I know that at any given time I can eat sweets if I want.It is fun to see how much I can save back though and it is not a good feeling at ALL to have nothing left in my "HAVE" pocket lol.If none of this makes sense to you,see my "Dessert plan" label.
~~~~~~~Thoughts~~~~~~~
A great thought I had yesterday.
It may take me months to lose the "evidence" of bad habits (lack of self control) from the past, but I can be a self controlled person TODAY!!!! I can have that satisfaction TODAY! Lord willing,I will never- ever- ever- go back to the way I used to be!
Last night,Scott and I were playing the wii and getting ready to go to bed and I was hungry.It wasn't really TRUE hunger but I was hungry.I said "Lets get to bed before I eat something." Then I realized what I said and I said "Nevermind.......I am NOT eating something."
I am not going to make bad decisions.I am not going to eat something because" I can't resist......".
I have more to say lol but I must stop for now! School needs done and the psewing room needs cleaned!
I just got my hour of exercise in and that feels great! 20 min of cardio/kickboxing,20 min a dance workout dvd on netflix,10 min zumba/dancing and 10 stretching.
Abigail made more lemon bars last night.Scott and I had one last night while we played Super Mario on the wii together lol.We had a blast and that lemon bar tasted so good knowing that it was a good choice.....Knowing that I had hardly any sugar that day.
When I put my skirt on this morning it buttoned much easier! I was tempted to step on the scales but I am not going to until Monday!Monday will be our day then!!!! I am super excited!!
I am not even tempted to eat anything I shouldn't and I thank the Lord for that!
I have more sugar calories available in my little planner than I ever have on a Thursday! The great thing about the way I am doing this sugar thing is that I never feel deprived.Right now I have 325 sugar calories available and if I get all of my water in I will have 50 more tonight.......I could earn more even if I got outside for some fresh air today for 1/2 hour etc.
It feels great to know that if Scott brought me home a Snickers bar I could eat it without guilt!I know that at any given time I can eat sweets if I want.It is fun to see how much I can save back though and it is not a good feeling at ALL to have nothing left in my "HAVE" pocket lol.If none of this makes sense to you,see my "Dessert plan" label.
~~~~~~~Thoughts~~~~~~~
A great thought I had yesterday.
It may take me months to lose the "evidence" of bad habits (lack of self control) from the past, but I can be a self controlled person TODAY!!!! I can have that satisfaction TODAY! Lord willing,I will never- ever- ever- go back to the way I used to be!
Last night,Scott and I were playing the wii and getting ready to go to bed and I was hungry.It wasn't really TRUE hunger but I was hungry.I said "Lets get to bed before I eat something." Then I realized what I said and I said "Nevermind.......I am NOT eating something."
I am not going to make bad decisions.I am not going to eat something because" I can't resist......".
I have more to say lol but I must stop for now! School needs done and the psewing room needs cleaned!
Wednesday, January 11, 2012
Hello fellow weight loss Mammas!!!
Doing fabs today (as my children and husband would say lol)!!!!
My total food from yesterday was......
Breakfast-Sm capp,green smothie and 1 piece of pb toast (hm bread)
Lunch-Large salad with sunflower seeds/cheese with cottage cheese/garlic dressing and 1 SM piece of toast
Snack- One 1" square of lemon bar (this was later in the afternoon.....after both of my lemon bar battles lol)
Supper-Salad,leftover pork roast/potatoes etc.,1 SMALL piece of garlic toast
Dessert-1 very small mini angelfood cake that Vashti made with brown sugar/cream cheese frosting (not much)
Water-Got all of it down! 72 oz plus 16 oz nettle/mint tea.I was drinking 4 water bottles(24 oz each) full of water and one of tea but I changed my mind and decided to cut it back to 3 water bottles.It is just too much water for me.I am big on paying attention to your body and I don't care what "studies" show,I do not believe that the Lord intended for me to drink so much water that I have to be racing to the bathroom all of the time with my pee completely clear.We will see how I do on this amount of water/tea.
Exercise-1 hour yesterday.Kickboxing,walking,dancing etc.
Sleep-I went to bed BEFORE 10:00 last night! CRAZY lol I had to get up at 5:00.I got SEVEN hours of sleep.The crazy thing was that I woke up absolutely exhausted! Weird for me.......
Today........
Breakfast-1 egg/1/2 cup broccoli with a little bit of cheese and 1/2 piece of toast with butter
Lunch- 1 SMALL piece of hm coffee cake with peanutbutter,1/2 cup cottage cheese,1 boiled egg and 2 orange slices.
Exercise.....I walked five fast miles and stretched for 15 min.
~~~~~~~~ Thoughts~~~~~~~~~
I am super motivated.For some reason,lately I have been thinking ALOT about my health in my old age.I look around me and I do NOT like what I see.I do NOT believe that old age should be bringing the diseases and misery that we see everywhere.What we do NOW ladies is going to make a difference in our health as Grandmas!
I have been thinking about the burden I could be to my children if I don't take care of my health.
I have been thinking along these lines......
What if there were no dentists?
What if there were no hospitals?
What if there were no medications?
I mean imagine if false teeth were not an option and cavities could not be filled? Now,I hope with all of my heart that I do not have to have false teeth someday but let me tell you,we would take a WHOLE lot more care of our teeth if we could not go get the decay drilled out and then eventually a brand new set of teeth etc.
No hospitals or medications?
What about no government help?
Our society is one of no consequence for our actions.We can eat frozen burritos/McDonalds and pop and then when we get diabetes/cancer etc. we can get a disability check......We can still get the medical care that we can't pay for because we can't work (because we are disabled).Then finally,we can go to the nursing home.Even if we can't pay for it.(Nevermind my feelings about nursing homes.)
What if none of that were possible?
I just get so sick of all of the irresponsibility.
I do not want to be a burden to my children OR society because I lacked the self control to take care of myself.Sure,no matter HOW perfect we ate/lived there would still be medical problems/disease but, if I got sick after knowing that I truly did take care of myself ,I would not feel guilty.
If I start having health problems because I lack the self control to not eat to much sugar,white flour,junk food and because I am too lazy to exercise/be active etc. etc. that is MY fault!
I am so serious about this.It churns my stomach to imagine being like the majority of old people I see.Pumped full of medication,inactive,and overweight.
My Grandpa is over 70,is on no government help,still works to take care of himself 100%(no retirement),still cuts his own wood,gardens etc..He has never been on any medications.He looks great and everyone thinks he is my dad.
If the Lord chooses me to have an illness for HIS glory then HIS WILL BE DONE.
BUT it will NOT be because I am choosing NOT to take care of myself.
With HIS help I KNOW I will be successful this time.
~~~~~~~More thoughts.......Different topic lol~~~~~~~~~~~~
Wanna agree on a weigh in day? I was going to weigh every day but I am done with that.It is tooooooo discouraging lol.PLUS I think weigh in day is such a day to look forward to! Especially if we all did it together! I really do not care what day it is as long as it is the same day every week.We could vote? I think it would be so fun! We could even meet up on chat or something for a special meeting every week!?Skype chat? FB? MOMYS? That would be SO fun!!
Also,my new train of thought is this........No matter how much weight I am or am not losing,every day my body is healthier and working better.After being abused for so many years it may take a little bit to really start dropping the weight.I will not let the numbers on the scale discourage me.I will just keep adjusting my plan and being patient until I AM losing.I mean,I can't say it isn't about the weight because it is.The weight HAS to go, lol but I believe 100% that it will if I keep this up.I am changing major habits here.
I think thats it for now.I need to do supper and have a snack.I am hungry.Bye for now!!
Oh and I SOOOO wanted to eat a few pieces of coffee cake at lunch today!!! Instead I ate one very SMALL piece! :):):)
My total food from yesterday was......
Breakfast-Sm capp,green smothie and 1 piece of pb toast (hm bread)
Lunch-Large salad with sunflower seeds/cheese with cottage cheese/garlic dressing and 1 SM piece of toast
Snack- One 1" square of lemon bar (this was later in the afternoon.....after both of my lemon bar battles lol)
Supper-Salad,leftover pork roast/potatoes etc.,1 SMALL piece of garlic toast
Dessert-1 very small mini angelfood cake that Vashti made with brown sugar/cream cheese frosting (not much)
Water-Got all of it down! 72 oz plus 16 oz nettle/mint tea.I was drinking 4 water bottles(24 oz each) full of water and one of tea but I changed my mind and decided to cut it back to 3 water bottles.It is just too much water for me.I am big on paying attention to your body and I don't care what "studies" show,I do not believe that the Lord intended for me to drink so much water that I have to be racing to the bathroom all of the time with my pee completely clear.We will see how I do on this amount of water/tea.
Exercise-1 hour yesterday.Kickboxing,walking,dancing etc.
Sleep-I went to bed BEFORE 10:00 last night! CRAZY lol I had to get up at 5:00.I got SEVEN hours of sleep.The crazy thing was that I woke up absolutely exhausted! Weird for me.......
Today........
Breakfast-1 egg/1/2 cup broccoli with a little bit of cheese and 1/2 piece of toast with butter
Lunch- 1 SMALL piece of hm coffee cake with peanutbutter,1/2 cup cottage cheese,1 boiled egg and 2 orange slices.
Exercise.....I walked five fast miles and stretched for 15 min.
~~~~~~~~ Thoughts~~~~~~~~~
I am super motivated.For some reason,lately I have been thinking ALOT about my health in my old age.I look around me and I do NOT like what I see.I do NOT believe that old age should be bringing the diseases and misery that we see everywhere.What we do NOW ladies is going to make a difference in our health as Grandmas!
I have been thinking about the burden I could be to my children if I don't take care of my health.
I have been thinking along these lines......
What if there were no dentists?
What if there were no hospitals?
What if there were no medications?
I mean imagine if false teeth were not an option and cavities could not be filled? Now,I hope with all of my heart that I do not have to have false teeth someday but let me tell you,we would take a WHOLE lot more care of our teeth if we could not go get the decay drilled out and then eventually a brand new set of teeth etc.
No hospitals or medications?
What about no government help?
Our society is one of no consequence for our actions.We can eat frozen burritos/McDonalds and pop and then when we get diabetes/cancer etc. we can get a disability check......We can still get the medical care that we can't pay for because we can't work (because we are disabled).Then finally,we can go to the nursing home.Even if we can't pay for it.(Nevermind my feelings about nursing homes.)
What if none of that were possible?
I just get so sick of all of the irresponsibility.
I do not want to be a burden to my children OR society because I lacked the self control to take care of myself.Sure,no matter HOW perfect we ate/lived there would still be medical problems/disease but, if I got sick after knowing that I truly did take care of myself ,I would not feel guilty.
If I start having health problems because I lack the self control to not eat to much sugar,white flour,junk food and because I am too lazy to exercise/be active etc. etc. that is MY fault!
I am so serious about this.It churns my stomach to imagine being like the majority of old people I see.Pumped full of medication,inactive,and overweight.
My Grandpa is over 70,is on no government help,still works to take care of himself 100%(no retirement),still cuts his own wood,gardens etc..He has never been on any medications.He looks great and everyone thinks he is my dad.
If the Lord chooses me to have an illness for HIS glory then HIS WILL BE DONE.
BUT it will NOT be because I am choosing NOT to take care of myself.
With HIS help I KNOW I will be successful this time.
~~~~~~~More thoughts.......Different topic lol~~~~~~~~~~~~
Wanna agree on a weigh in day? I was going to weigh every day but I am done with that.It is tooooooo discouraging lol.PLUS I think weigh in day is such a day to look forward to! Especially if we all did it together! I really do not care what day it is as long as it is the same day every week.We could vote? I think it would be so fun! We could even meet up on chat or something for a special meeting every week!?Skype chat? FB? MOMYS? That would be SO fun!!
Also,my new train of thought is this........No matter how much weight I am or am not losing,every day my body is healthier and working better.After being abused for so many years it may take a little bit to really start dropping the weight.I will not let the numbers on the scale discourage me.I will just keep adjusting my plan and being patient until I AM losing.I mean,I can't say it isn't about the weight because it is.The weight HAS to go, lol but I believe 100% that it will if I keep this up.I am changing major habits here.
I think thats it for now.I need to do supper and have a snack.I am hungry.Bye for now!!
Oh and I SOOOO wanted to eat a few pieces of coffee cake at lunch today!!! Instead I ate one very SMALL piece! :):):)
Tuesday, January 10, 2012
Tuesday noon......:):)
Doing FANTASTIC TODAY!!!!!
This morning I woke up to pack Scott's lunch and there were the delicious lemon bars left over from last night.
What I have always done? Eat a few of them while I pack his lunch.
What I did today? Didn't TOUCH them! It was CRAZY how bad I wanted some.That in itsself made me say "NO" just to practice self control! I had the calories to be able to eat some but I asked myself these questions.
"Is this the right choice?" NO
"Is this the way I want to start my day?" NO
"Do I really want to use my calories NOW?" NO
It would have been a bad decision so I didn't do it.
A few minutes ago I was giving a few of the children who hadn't had any yet a small piece of lemon bar.I was practically drooling.It was like my hand HAD to reach down and eat some! I could taste the flavor,feel the chewy,sugary,texture.......I decide to eat some,then I decided not to,I decided to take just one bite...I had to have just one bite......Then I decided NOT TO *just* because of how hard of a decision it was! I WILL have some self control people! lol
I divided it all up and didn't take one bite.I didn't even want to lick my fingers but I did because I didn't feel like getting up and washing my hands because I just got done working out! lol
So far today my water is great,tea is made,1 hour of workout done,excellent breakfast and I am getting ready to eat a big salad.I will update with my food journal later.
OH! I did have a small cup of cappuccino this morning.Vashti woke up with me at 5:00 all on her own and wanted to have a cup with me.I didn't even want one but we almost never have capp mix and I didn't want to turn down that time with her.
Was it a good decision? YES!
Do I regret it? Not at all!
I didn't drink it because I "just couldn't help myself" but I drank it because I thought it was a good decision...
Oh and Stacy M I am weighing every day.I may not update HERE every day but I am weighing every day.
This morning I woke up to pack Scott's lunch and there were the delicious lemon bars left over from last night.
What I have always done? Eat a few of them while I pack his lunch.
What I did today? Didn't TOUCH them! It was CRAZY how bad I wanted some.That in itsself made me say "NO" just to practice self control! I had the calories to be able to eat some but I asked myself these questions.
"Is this the right choice?" NO
"Is this the way I want to start my day?" NO
"Do I really want to use my calories NOW?" NO
It would have been a bad decision so I didn't do it.
A few minutes ago I was giving a few of the children who hadn't had any yet a small piece of lemon bar.I was practically drooling.It was like my hand HAD to reach down and eat some! I could taste the flavor,feel the chewy,sugary,texture.......I decide to eat some,then I decided not to,I decided to take just one bite...I had to have just one bite......Then I decided NOT TO *just* because of how hard of a decision it was! I WILL have some self control people! lol
I divided it all up and didn't take one bite.I didn't even want to lick my fingers but I did because I didn't feel like getting up and washing my hands because I just got done working out! lol
So far today my water is great,tea is made,1 hour of workout done,excellent breakfast and I am getting ready to eat a big salad.I will update with my food journal later.
OH! I did have a small cup of cappuccino this morning.Vashti woke up with me at 5:00 all on her own and wanted to have a cup with me.I didn't even want one but we almost never have capp mix and I didn't want to turn down that time with her.
Was it a good decision? YES!
Do I regret it? Not at all!
I didn't drink it because I "just couldn't help myself" but I drank it because I thought it was a good decision...
Oh and Stacy M I am weighing every day.I may not update HERE every day but I am weighing every day.
Monday, January 9, 2012
Monday evening.....
Did great tonight at only eating the dessert I had planned and cappuccino.....Not so great at getting sleep as it is 12:42 AM but tonight was my sister's night to stay up late with us so.......
Anyhow,toniht while in the hsower with Scott....
Me- "You better enjoy seeing me this size beause you will never see me this size again!" lol
Him-"Laugh....." and then he told me that when he hugs me I feel smaller.
Me-"Do you really believe that I am going to do it this time? Lose all my weight?"
Him without hesitation......- "No."
WHAT???????? lol
Then we both started laughing.He said "Well you asked!" I gave him a hard time about that lol but I don't blame him.I asked him if he thought that I was just going to stay this weight forever and he said no but that he thought I would not lose it until I am done having all of my babies! lol I told him that by then I wouldn't even have any beauty left.I said that with each baby takes some of my beauty lol.
He said my beauty could never fade! :):):):)
He is such a sweetheart but I have news for him.......He is WRONG! lol
Anyhow,toniht while in the hsower with Scott....
Me- "You better enjoy seeing me this size beause you will never see me this size again!" lol
Him-"Laugh....." and then he told me that when he hugs me I feel smaller.
Me-"Do you really believe that I am going to do it this time? Lose all my weight?"
Him without hesitation......- "No."
WHAT???????? lol
Then we both started laughing.He said "Well you asked!" I gave him a hard time about that lol but I don't blame him.I asked him if he thought that I was just going to stay this weight forever and he said no but that he thought I would not lose it until I am done having all of my babies! lol I told him that by then I wouldn't even have any beauty left.I said that with each baby takes some of my beauty lol.
He said my beauty could never fade! :):):):)
He is such a sweetheart but I have news for him.......He is WRONG! lol
OK :) *whew*
Pork roast,gravy,salad,green beans,mashed potaoes,saurkraut and hm dinner roll! All hot and ready for when Scott gets here! I can't wait to eat lol.Of course,I will be loading up on vegies/meat and taking it easy on the rolls/potatoes.
SUNDAY-
Breakfast-2 morning glory muffins (carrots/apples/oats in them)
Snack- a few jo jo's and couple of pieces of chicken left over from date night
Lunch-1 muffin and hm veg soup with cottage cheese
Supper-1 baked potato with sausage adn large salad
Dessert-Hot chocolate
Water- I didn't get it all in bu I did drink alot
Tea- none
Exercise-none (Sunday is my free from exercise day)
Sleep-Great!
MONDAY-
Breakfast-1 sm oatmeal chocolate chip muffin (I wanted to eat sooooo many more they were so good!) 1 piece of sausage
Lunch-popcorn and then when I got home this afternoon I drank the smoothie that was supposed to be for lunch! Cottage cheese/sm amount of oj concentrate/fresh(locally grown!) cranberries/apples(with seeds) and several spinache leaves PLUS :) dried bilberry and hawthorn.
Supper will be excellent!!!! I will not overeat....No problems in that area.It will be no struggle at ALL for me to eat lots of salad/vegies.While I LOVE carbs I also LOVE vegies....LOVE them.
Dessert-It is Abigails night tonight and we will be having cappuccino and lemon bars.I will make sure that I do not go over my sugar calorie limit! 1 cup capp and 1 sm lemon bar.
Water- I will not get it all in today but I got alot in and will continue to do so.
Tea-None
Exercise-3 miles/15 min dancing and 5-10 stretching
Sleep-I got GREAT sleep last night!
Now..............What I have been thinking about.
In the past I never felt the need to make this a spiritual thing.I just didn't.It is hitting me lately that apparently I need some help.I do believe 100% that the Lord will help me with this if I seek his help.Apparently I DO need HIS help as I have not been successful on my own! It isn't just that I want to be thin to look good either.I want to take care of and be thankful for the health/body that he has given me.I want to be a good example of self control! I most definitely don't want to be a good example of someone who lacks self control! I hate that !
I have always told Scott that I just want to live the way I KNOW is right.If I were ignorant that would be different.I am not though.I know how to live and eat healthy.It is one of my passions! I am such a bad example though!
I hate that I make so many goals and quit.
If I get cancer I want to know that it isn't because I didn't take care of myself kwim?
I do not want to have regrets over how I lived my life.I don't mean perfection here.I just mean EFFORT.DO what is right for my family and myself.Grace put it well.....Beautiful disciplines.I want to be disciplined! I want to have self control.
I am really,seriously going to be going to the Lord for help this time.DAILY.
I am very excited!!
Oh and guess what !? The scales said 229.8 this morning! lol Hey,better than 230! I hope to never ever ever ever ever ever ever ever see those numbers again!!!!
I am very encouraged tonight!
SUNDAY-
Breakfast-2 morning glory muffins (carrots/apples/oats in them)
Snack- a few jo jo's and couple of pieces of chicken left over from date night
Lunch-1 muffin and hm veg soup with cottage cheese
Supper-1 baked potato with sausage adn large salad
Dessert-Hot chocolate
Water- I didn't get it all in bu I did drink alot
Tea- none
Exercise-none (Sunday is my free from exercise day)
Sleep-Great!
MONDAY-
Breakfast-1 sm oatmeal chocolate chip muffin (I wanted to eat sooooo many more they were so good!) 1 piece of sausage
Lunch-popcorn and then when I got home this afternoon I drank the smoothie that was supposed to be for lunch! Cottage cheese/sm amount of oj concentrate/fresh(locally grown!) cranberries/apples(with seeds) and several spinache leaves PLUS :) dried bilberry and hawthorn.
Supper will be excellent!!!! I will not overeat....No problems in that area.It will be no struggle at ALL for me to eat lots of salad/vegies.While I LOVE carbs I also LOVE vegies....LOVE them.
Dessert-It is Abigails night tonight and we will be having cappuccino and lemon bars.I will make sure that I do not go over my sugar calorie limit! 1 cup capp and 1 sm lemon bar.
Water- I will not get it all in today but I got alot in and will continue to do so.
Tea-None
Exercise-3 miles/15 min dancing and 5-10 stretching
Sleep-I got GREAT sleep last night!
Now..............What I have been thinking about.
In the past I never felt the need to make this a spiritual thing.I just didn't.It is hitting me lately that apparently I need some help.I do believe 100% that the Lord will help me with this if I seek his help.Apparently I DO need HIS help as I have not been successful on my own! It isn't just that I want to be thin to look good either.I want to take care of and be thankful for the health/body that he has given me.I want to be a good example of self control! I most definitely don't want to be a good example of someone who lacks self control! I hate that !
I have always told Scott that I just want to live the way I KNOW is right.If I were ignorant that would be different.I am not though.I know how to live and eat healthy.It is one of my passions! I am such a bad example though!
I hate that I make so many goals and quit.
If I get cancer I want to know that it isn't because I didn't take care of myself kwim?
I do not want to have regrets over how I lived my life.I don't mean perfection here.I just mean EFFORT.DO what is right for my family and myself.Grace put it well.....Beautiful disciplines.I want to be disciplined! I want to have self control.
I am really,seriously going to be going to the Lord for help this time.DAILY.
I am very excited!!
Oh and guess what !? The scales said 229.8 this morning! lol Hey,better than 230! I hope to never ever ever ever ever ever ever ever see those numbers again!!!!
I am very encouraged tonight!
NOT pregnant!
Atleast the FR was negative at this point:).
I am glad.....I would have never chosen it....
(but am I crazy to admit that I *was* just a wee bit disappointed??)
Atleast for now I can keep siked up about getting SKINNY! lol and I AM going to try to get this little Titey (Titus) to nurse more throughout the night! lol
I simply have NOT had a chance to update today! I have good reports! I am going to go clean and work on supper and then try to slip back here before Scott gets home! Off to work as hard as I can for 1/2 hour and then hopefully I will be back to update for yesterday and today!!
Bye for now friends!!!
I am glad.....I would have never chosen it....
(but am I crazy to admit that I *was* just a wee bit disappointed??)
Atleast for now I can keep siked up about getting SKINNY! lol and I AM going to try to get this little Titey (Titus) to nurse more throughout the night! lol
I simply have NOT had a chance to update today! I have good reports! I am going to go clean and work on supper and then try to slip back here before Scott gets home! Off to work as hard as I can for 1/2 hour and then hopefully I will be back to update for yesterday and today!!
Bye for now friends!!!
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